One thing I have a hard time with is making long-term friends. I'm not unfriendly...I worked through my shyness years ago...but I have a tendency to not 'follow through' with my more casual relationships.
xh knows tons of people. Actually, it can be annoying. But, what I do notice that he does, is talks to everyone. While his level of extroversion is a bit exhausting for me (I do enjoy my down time), I think I could learn from how he does it.
I do have regular playgroups that I take the baby to. And I'm trying to talk more with my neighbor. She has a little boy. I suspect she and the father are split up--there's this odd tension whenever they are both there. But I'm trying to make it a point to just say 'hi' more often. Easier said than done.
I'm also trying to make a regular thing out of a yoga class at the gym.
I did notice xh opened up a bit more the last few days. Perhaps that's why I got emotional/grumpy earlier this week. We were discussing Thanksgiving plans. He also has been talking more about me hanging out with his friends. This was a huge sticking point in the past...his secretiveness, and keeping up huge walls.
Strangely, I'm looking forward to the 26-hour cross-country drive I am undertaking this weekend. Alone. I've never done anything quite like it. Feels a lot like jumping off the high dive. I will miss the baby, though.
