Saffie's sandbox - Extension 9

[saffie]

Speaking of music, you should see my sons and me when Bohemian Rhapsody!!!

I bet that's a site to behold. I love Rock music. My H is a big ZZ Top fan but I am more Queen, Led Zep....

I'm not sure what to do. I want to use my brain but I don't want something that takes me over like my career did before children. I am trying to work out if that is possible. It might be my personality that's the problem. My H and I were saying that in principle I want the responsibility of stacking shelves but I am the sort of person who if I started doing that would be unable trying to resist taking over the store within 6 months.

I love my horse and am good with animals but I cannot go back now and retrain to be a vet as I don't have the time or the funding. I just don't know if being an equine nurse would be enough. I am reading books about job fulfillment and career changes at the moment.

Also after many years at home I need to work on my self esteem. I find what you did very interesting because it was obviously not an easy journey back in to the work place. Did you find it hard to keep a PMA with it all?

I totally agree about the money thing and am lucky that I don't HAVE to work but I think I may need to for me because of my children growing older. I do need to cover enough though for any childcare costs - my youngest is only 9 - and also someone to give me cover on my horse when I can't do her because of working.

And then there's the guilt that my others will have all had the benefits of having a stay at home mom until they reached secondary school, but my youngest wouldn't have had if I go back to work now......

saffie