What is reasonable and what is not?

[Startingover2]

I had a hard night last night. You know, when the immediate anger, shock and rage kind of subside and you are left with reality. The reality that he is capeable of being so hurtful yet once again. The reality that it's looking like this poor child will be born into a broken home. The reality that this hurts to be so betrayed again and I let it.

I was letting my mind go somewhere it shouldn't as well. I was thinking that OW must be doing backflips right now. This is exactly what she wanted. Him away, not with his child and with her and her kids. If he happened to tell her about this yesterday I am sure she is doing the 'oh you poor thing' speech because she is such a phoney, but inside I bet she is so happy.

My goal ahead of me today is to move some furniture in the babys room out and start to get it ready to paint. I had some retail therapy yesterday and bought her bedding for her room and some little outfits and blankets. Made me feel better, but at the same time it was something that exh and I were going to do together. Guess he missed out.

Thanks Jak, trying to be strong.