Catfan, thanks for your input. Friends and family have told me that I am very patient. Normally, that is not the case. They all state that I should file for D and "get on with living my life." To that, I simply reply, I AM living my life (for the first time in awhile). I am not at home sitting by the phone eagerly anticipating a call from her. I am out and about. That is not to mean at bars chasing women, but rather doing things that make me happy (fishing, visiting grandfather, martial arts, ect.) I also reply that if I am will to have patience during this, the bad times, imagine how good the good times must have been for me to have this patience.
Sometimes I wonder if she is too scared to pull the trigger on the D. Keep in mind that we have already signed the papers over a month ago but they have not been filed. I spoke with W's mom (on an unrelated issue, really!) and she told me that when she asks W about us, W replies that we are communicating. That sounds like a negative reading it, but it is really a positive, trust me. She offered her sympathy to me for my sitch. I replied that I am doing great and whatever is going to happen is going to happen and I will be OK (I was well aware that anything I said would get back to W). She invited me to stop by and see her and her husband. I was happy to know that at least W has not been running me down to them b/c if she had, MIL would not be friendly to me (they are an extremely tight family). Anywho, I have decided to not initiate contact w/ W until she does so first. Gotta maintain that air of mystery, right? Hope I can overcome the urge to txt her. Wish me luck. To be continued....
