thanks, care. you are right, of course. I need to get back in the saddle and stop the idiocy/madness.
what I really need to do is just back off right now. I sent him an e-mail this morning, saying I was sorry for this morning and that I didn't get much sleep last night and that I do understand that yesterday was hard for him, too.
I got this back:
Don’t be sorry…I deserve it. You’re right. I shouldn’t put you in that position and I won’t.
but there is nothing he can say to me right now. it all just hurts. it sucks. I've still got him/them on the brain.
wtf happened to us??? how did we get here???
okay, must stop spiral. will not talk to him again until I see him for the kid-swap today. I will still have a happy life with or without him. I won't turn into some mopey weepy person just because he has made this choice.
M-41 H-38 M-10 years, T-14 years Bomb-PA 3/19/07 Separated-6/7/07 Piecing/h back home 5/08 S-6 S-4 D-4
"Courage doesn't always roar. Sometimes courage is that little voice at the end of the day that says, 'I'll try again tomorrow.'"
