You are being strong Nikki.

You are being strong by going and trying to GAL and letting your H wallow in his MLC himself.

By going and doing even escape or pretending it leads to wanting to do the things that you are doing for you.

And by that, you are getting stronger and you will know that you can be just fine no matter what.

DO you know what I mean?

(((((hugs))))) wish right now I were there with you.

JAK

You don't get to choose how you're going to die. Or when, you can only decide how you're going to live now. ~Joan Baez