I am going on a small trip tomorrow and wont be back until Sunday so I probably wont have PC access which is probably a good thing because I keep getting myself into more trouble. (don't even ask what I did this time.) I need to read DR and DB again because my backsliding is ugly today.

I am going about 5.5 hours away to spend some time with my step children. I am so blessed that my current H xwife knows how much I love the kids and she and I have an awesome relationship. She is as shocked at what he is doing as I am.

Anyway, I am going to get to be with them and that will be good for my kids and myself to see the children.

I need to do something to stay outta trouble because I can't seem to do it by myself. Well I am off to read my latest book. The courage to be a single mother. I know it isn't really DB positive but it actually is helping me with how to handle what I am doing right now. Single mother doesnt necessarily mean divorced mother right? I mean it just means right now I am doing it on my own. I am and have been for 9 weeks. He has not seen the kids or I at all for 3 weeks now.

M 32 H 39
SS 15, SD 12, S11, S9, D7, D6, D4
E/A 02/06 WAS 03/06 RH 05/06
On 07/07 told me he wants to leave again.
On 08/11/07 Walked out again.

People say "When God closes a door he opens a window." They forget to tell you "It is hell in the hallway!"