Love addiction--that sums up how I am feeling and responding when it is bad...
Hence, my cold turkey.
Stay in the now, morgan. Don't think back, don't think forward. Even what will be by tomorrow. Not in the next hour. Just now.
You are not hungry. You are not cold. You have a beautiful, safe house. You have the most precious children sleeping safe in their beds. You have food in the fridge, and more available. You have enough money. You have many irl friends. You have many friends here, who you may not have ever met in person, but who care about you very much. You have your family. You have a miraculous season to enjoy, with all of the perfect temps and quilts of wild colors over the mountains. You are blessed and fortunate to have been born and raised in an area of the world and in a social setting that affords you all of these gifts. You have your health. You have your heart, able to feel every range of emotion possible, some even simultaneously.
You have yourself--a beautiful, strong, loving, caring, warm, funny, reflective, introspective, loyal, committed, decent, generous, positive, deserving person. That is something that no one, NO one, can ever take away from you. Be gentle with yourself.
