Jumping in here because this is interesting to me as a fellow type 4....
NJ said: Inwardly I am rebellious of the conformity to look attractive, although I do go along with the program, to a degree.
I think I am like this too, if I understand what you're saying. It's just another example of the many ways in which I seem to hold opposing views of things at the same time, and it makes no sense to me. I want to look/be attractive, but at the same time I find "beauty" routines to be bothersome and I tend to resist them. Too much time spent on it and it does seem shallow to me. No time spent at all and I start feeling unattractive.
Lil, what you wrote definitely applies to me too. Keeping the house clean effortlessly is indeed magical and mysterious! Most of the sensate activities you mentioned are things that I have thought I would like to do or would like to be able to do, but if I try them I don't stick with them because they're so much work and don't come naturally. I guess this means I need to try again!
