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[Trixi]

Perspective #2:
Why did you get "sleepy and mad" at the gym?
What did you try, and for how long did you try it?
"let's discuss".

Well, now that I think about it, my thyroid was off the charts messed up at the time. I was the walking dead and any extra exertion made me exhausted and upset.

I had a personal trainer that I saw 3 times/wk for 1.5 hours at a time. It worked (lost weight, all that) but it killed me. I would make it to the car and cry. (This was during undiagnosed thyroid.) I have NEVER (even as a kid) had an endorphin thing from exercise. I am also odd in that summers depress me, not winters. I thought I was crazy-but I just found an article the Dorothy Hamill suffers from Reverse SAD too.
Well, that's neither here nor there; just pointing out I don't have the same hormonal things as the general populace.

I have always fancied myself more of an intellectual than jock. You are right, though, that I *should* take the "little" bit of time that it would take to get myself in good shape. I did try some videos since I corrected my thyroid and I found myself easily distracted. ("Oh- I know, I should clean the toilet. Oh-I need to clean out the pantry. Oh-I should vacuum.") Anything else beside exercise. I so admire Morgan and her dedication to the gym. All the women out there who are dedicated to the gym- I admire.
Look, don't get me wrong- I am attractive in my own way; guys hit on me at the bar- so I am not a total fat, hag or anything; But I could do to lose weight and tone up. I have lots of stretch marks from my daughter. (Guess I wasn't meant to be pregnant.)

When we sold our rental house, my H had said "Maybe you could get a tummy tuck with some of the proceeds"- I lit up and said "Don't tease me-I would love to do that." Of course, instead, after it closed we paid off bills and he moved out. Doesn't make sense to drop serious coin on a tummy tuck at that point.
Even so, when he is feeling shmoopy about me, he will kiss my tummy; he will tell me I am sexy (I don't ask-he volunteers)...Maybe he is trying to find out if the "something missing" is a tight body? I will never be 25 or even 30 again. Ever. I don't want to set myself up to compete with that.