thanks so much for the support. I'm doing okay so far. cried a little this morning while the kids were at school, reflected a little, vegged a little, moped a little. went to cvs and almost bought H one of the stupid "troubled relationship" cards that hallmark now puts out, but thought better of it and put it back.
took the kids out to lunch then off to a pretty park for a bit of running around/reflecting. we just got home and I'm doing pretty well overall. doesn't mean I won't fall apart a bit tonight, I most likley will, but really, am doing okay. better than I expected.
I have to say it must have been very weird for my in-laws. they are card people...they don't just send one card for an occasion, they send a few of them. must have been weird for them not getting them for our anniversary this year. I know our separation has been hard on them in general. and I'll tell you, it was weird getting the mail today with nothing in it. trust me, I didn't expect anything, just weird.
I have a feeling next year will be much easier. hopefully by then I will be nicely detached. a friend of mine recently told me he finds himself glancing back occasionally, not staring backwards. I like that. moving toward that.
for the first time since we were married, I did not watch our wedding video/look at our album on this day. and ya know what, I'm fine with that. I looked at them a month ago or therabouts, gave them kind of a last farewell, and tucked them away. wasn't sure if I would feel like pulling them out today after all, but I don't.
thanks for being there, guys. it really does help.
M-41 H-38 M-10 years, T-14 years Bomb-PA 3/19/07 Separated-6/7/07 Piecing/h back home 5/08 S-6 S-4 D-4
"Courage doesn't always roar. Sometimes courage is that little voice at the end of the day that says, 'I'll try again tomorrow.'"
