The Zoo of the Surreal

[MJontheMend]

I really do have a thing for pale, ghastly, handsome vampires.

Don't feel bad. I have done a serious 180 on the whole "importance of physicality or visual appeal" thing. In case you haven't noticed, I keep hooking up with Type 4s but now I'm hooking up with Type 4s who are strongly attracted to my natural or personally preferred physical aesthetic for myself. Partly due to the fact that I have gained empathy for the fact that men can't help being sexual slaves to their visual cortex and therefore I have become more objective about objectification and partly due to the fact that we do share an aesthetic vision of "what is sexy", I am able to now do things like have long convos with GP about whether it would really be possible for me to lose an inch off my waist by adding an inch of muscle to my *ss rather than by losing weight. We are in agreement that the sexiest/best alternative would be if I could slip on any pair of size 12 jeans and have the waistband sit loosely but my thigh muscles popping out. I think it is highly possible that we both like this aesthetic because it will naturally improve my ability to hold him in a deathgrip semi-scissor lock with my legs when he orgasms. Also, he told me that I remind him of a "thick" version of the blond Alice in "Resident Evil" which means that he is insane but also did make me want to buy some thigh high suede boots with garters.

Another (at least to me) interesting note. We were talking about the slang used in the urban community for what GP jokingly euphemistically refers to as "enjoying connubial relations" and it's all variations of "beat her brainless" or "punished her good". The thing is within his community it is absolutely assumed and accepted that women like it that way and would have little respect for a man who didn't bring it on in that manner.