Hi Mwel I think that you should reply plain and simple and say
It is because I love you and want you to be happy that I am not signing right now. I feel this is just too quick and soon. I know I can not keep you in something you want out of but I need some time myself right now to come to terms with this. I hope you can understand and respect what I need as well.
How does that sound?
I know about the shakes and freaking out. I have been doing that a lot this week. You will be fine. Deep breaths, in through the nose out through the mouth. Concentrate on this and hopefully it will calm you down some.
