Lets try thing again!!!!

[Heartbroken]

I hear you loud and clear on the pushing front...... I have pushed and tried and tested my H out time and time again since he recommitted. I think that I couldn't quite believe either him or that he was committed to US.

Saffie

I so can relate to this!!! I am finally done asking H if he is still talking to OW. I asked him to swear on his children's lives and gave him every opportunity to tell me "the truth" or what I think I should hear??? WTH why can't I just believe in him I want to so bad but this has been his pattern - she contacts him and they start talking again and he gets sad and emotionally withdrawn from me. I told him I cannot do Retro if she is even remotely in the picture - it's just not fair to our M... He even questioned he did not understand why it would matter if he were talking to her and then he stopped and actually heard what he was saying - it was like a light bulb came on.

H says he is so messed up emotionally - he fears he has wrecked everything for good. Even though I am so over the A and just want to move he cannot seem to let it go - you would have thought that I was the one that had the A!!! I really have a hard time understanding where he is coming from right now. I almost feel like he came back out of obligation and why am I so unlovable??? Then I step back and stop this negative talk and pick myself up by the bootstraps (again) - I have been doing this since last August you think I'd be used to it by now!!

Limbo - take it day by day and count the positives they mean SO MUCH MORE than those pesky negatives!!

Happy Thursday!!

HB