no, not man bashing. I love men...I've been boy crazy my whole life. I think guys are, in general, awesome. just feeling a bit hurt and rejected and sad, I guess. H was someone I really trusted and believed in...still stunned that he has gone this route, that this is where our marriage ended up. I never in my wildest imaginations ever expected it.
gingersnap, it was worse when he was in the house. so much worse. I hated him sleeping on the couch more than he hated sleeping on it, I would say. at least with him gone the rejection isn't in my face every minute.
I'll be fine, I know I will. with him, on my own, with someone else, I really will be fine. just hard at times, and this is definitely one of those times.
gearing up for his phone call in the morning. need to have my response ready for when he asks, "are you okay?"
eta, the guys I've met here, especially the ones I met irl last weekend, are amazing. they are what gives me hope that not all guys are like this. trust me, if h is like this, I could easily believe it of anyone. but the guys I went out with...atgo, sots, swashy, exiled, lord grenville, and jackw (even though he got lucky and got to go to the sox game instead of out with us) are solid gold.
Last edited by morgan; 10/18/0712:58 AM.
M-41 H-38 M-10 years, T-14 years Bomb-PA 3/19/07 Separated-6/7/07 Piecing/h back home 5/08 S-6 S-4 D-4
"Courage doesn't always roar. Sometimes courage is that little voice at the end of the day that says, 'I'll try again tomorrow.'"
