There and Back, # 9

[Gingersnap]

(((((hugs back atcha Morgan!))))

of course you know what I'm about to say. The whole point is it has NOTHING to do with you. You couldn't have done anything to prevent your H from behaving this way. His actions, feelings, reactions, and moods belong to him.

And sweetie of course he loved you back when he said those sweet words. He did. He's not the same man right now. I make the same mistake of looking at my H and trying to relate him as I've always known him. And I fall flat on my face each time. He's not that person. He's gone for now. I do look for glimmers of hope he will be back soon. But alien spew is a term used because it's NOT our healthy H who's talking.

And girl...you don't need a man...your H or a Sleepless-in-Seattle-fairytale-who doesn't-exist-irl-man. You are beautiful and whole all on your own. Don't look for validation out of a man. You'll be disappointed every time.

Have a good cry and grieve a little. It's ok.