he even begin classes tonight to convert to my religion, it has never been something that I have asked him to do, or expected...he wants to, as the kids and myself are catholic and he feels that this is something he wants to do, so it has totally been his choice.
Man oh man! That has got to tell you something there, girlfriend!! He really is in this M for the long haul. Listen, sweetie, all that negative stuff I said about OW and H working at same place.....forget that. This man has got what it takes and I think he is trying to show you he means business by making this very serious step. If you have not "hounded" him into doing this....then you have much to be happy about.
As far as you not having certain "feelings".....well, I could write the book on that subject. Anyway, put it down to all the emotional crap you have been through. At some point and time....our bodies and mind subconciously start to protect itself. You have been through so much. Stop worring. That is the biggest problem right now. (And, I might add, I didn't help matters with that negative post I sent you....sorry).
Maybe instead of detaching, you just need to have a relaxed mental attitude and think more about GAL instead of what/how you feel and your H feels, etc. He can tell when you are "uptight" and that will turn him off.....big time. It affects all husbands the same. (lol)
Even though you have your H, you can still have time for you. Do something that will make you feel real pretty and celebrate being a woman! I changed my hair color and I found it helped a lot. Kind of fun, in fact.
You were talking about how it helped when you were told that you had been an inspiration to somebody. Know what helped me.....oh goodness I'm going to sound arrogant here.....but to read my own advice.....hahahaha. Now, the ticket is to start taking my own advice...then me ..... and maybe another person...or two... will be better off. (lol) So, go back and read what that person saw that inspired them so much!
Take care......you are doing much better.
It is not about what you feel should work in your M. It is about doing the work that gets the right results. Do what works!
