Oh how I hate those triggers. Every time my W gets angry it totally triggers me off. She has a tendency to transfer anger from the situation to me. Like this morning when I went over to watch my D so she can take my S to fire safty day at his preschool. Well, she's running around like a chicken w/ its head cut off getting things ready. She got all bent out of shape and all of sudden she gets angry with me. I haven't done a thing.... I guess it's a lot easier for her to do that with all that pent up resentment and anger. When that happens it just makes me feel like absolute crap. I always panic when she gets mad at me. It's like I have been conditioned to do that over the many years. I get all sorts of anxiety and it is awful! I need to somehow learn that if she gets upset then oh well, she'll get over it. It's not the end of the world. It's not like I'm going to lose her....since technically I don't have her anymore....
M: 31 W: 31 M: 7 T: 8 S:4 D:2 Bomb dropped: too many to count or remember, 12/17/07 last one S on 9/2/07 W sent off D papers 12/31/07. Me trying to live life and hope she returns one day.
