789, sorry 'bout the keyboard. that's the second one I've indirectly injured on this board. lol.
care, thanks so much for heading over here. you know how inspired I am by your own story. I absolutely agree with you...right now, H is damned if he does, damned if he doesn't. I'm going to do my best to make the day about me and the blessings of my marriage (my children) and work on processing whatever it is I am feeling. I used to hate that term, but I'm starting to like it more...makes me feel more active than simply letting the emotions wash over me.
will also try to be better about telling him what i need when things get heated...stopping and actually saying the words. it is NOT easy for me to tell him what I need, or anyone for that matter. I'm a nurturer, I like to provide for others needs, hard for me to ask for my needs to be met. something for me to think about (and process).
if you ever want to try to meet up in person again, care, I would love it. my e-mail is morganagain at gmail.com
FLTC, it amazes me, too. especially not giving the marriage a chance first. its one thing to exhaust all avenues and to finally realize there is no choice, but to just leave casually boggles my mind. I guess I'm a fighter, though. and I believe there is an ebb and a flow in relationships that is normal...a few years I felt a bit of an ebb, but instead of leaving my marriage or engaging in an affair, I threw myself into it until I felt the flow surge again.
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M-41 H-38 M-10 years, T-14 years Bomb-PA 3/19/07 Separated-6/7/07 Piecing/h back home 5/08 S-6 S-4 D-4
"Courage doesn't always roar. Sometimes courage is that little voice at the end of the day that says, 'I'll try again tomorrow.'"
