No kidding! Can't believe I didn't really see the sarcasm in that the first time around. I don't believe going there would piss her off so much that she'd shut the door more than she already has though. She's brought her BF around multiple times to events and places that he probably shouldn't have come given the short amount of time they'd been dating, the fact that we're still M'd, etc. Me showing up with some girls (none of which I'm dating) to get snacks for a road trip can't be that harmful at this point. We've been separated for over 11 months, D is looming, she's living with her BF, etc. Honestly, if it seals the deal, I'll be bummed, but I'll be okay at this point. I've tried everything else and have done outstanding with it, but to no avail. I've changed in great ways in regard to my temper, being critical of her, controlling of her, etc -- I'm so proud of myself for this, and I know it wouldn't have been possible without going through this experience and finding DR and doing some counseling. I will continue being this better person for the rest of my life, but I have to see what happens with this snack idea, because it's a tunnel that has gone unexplored. Maybe I won't see any reaction ever -- oh well then, at least I tried something new. The only wrong button is...well, you know. I do wish I could get the smirk off my face or off my brain when I think about how she might feel about it, but again -- I'm obviously human and not as detached as I'd like to be. Just being able to admit it WILL get me closer to the latter though.
Thanks OT -- nice to get your opinion on the matter too! Stop by with insight, advice, or 2x4s anytime!
Me -- do you really think it is that harmful of a move, given the fact that I've done everything else and done it well?
