Rollar Coasters are no longer fun

[Amy]

He called my kids this morning to tell them he is being transferred to a place where he probably can not call us for a few weeks. He said he will try if he can but I honestly hope he can't. I really need the time as much as he does. I got a book on forgiveness and I am going to try to read it. I want to be able to forgive him but I am not sure anymore if I can. I am not sure I am that strong. I want my kids to have a family, I want and love my husband, but he lies so much he doesnt know when he tells the truth.

This morning he talked to me for a second and I simply said. H, all I want from you is for you to get better and be the dad you can be. I want you healthy and happy and whomever that is with I will have to accept. I hope while you are in there you really deal with who you are and what you want and your relationship with God. Know you are loved by your children and hold onto that if the therapy hurts. I gave him no chance to say anything. I said take care and hung up. We will see where it goes now. I honestly need to take a long look at what I want because I am not sure anymore myself.

I want to do what is right for my children, myself, and God but here is my question.

If I do take my husband back after the affairs, verbal abuse, and abandonment what am I teaching my kids? Here are the two things they could take from it but which is more likely. Am I thinking to deep.

1) My boys could learn it is ok to have affairs and expect their wife to take them back.

2) My girls could think it is ok for their husbands to have affairs, verbally abuse them, and feel they have to just accept it and keep taking them back.

3) Maybe they will all learn you can work through problems and we can actually be a healthy family.

I honestly don't know what to think so any words of wisdom would help. I am starting to think I need to check into the hosp. right along with him.