oh neph, (((HUGS))) I totally know what you are saying here. I am so freaking scared that H has this master plan. he has lied and betrayed me in so many ways that I never thought were in him, its almost odder to trust him at all at this point.
the truth is, you have no idea what his intentions or motivations are. and the fact that he hasn't answered you on retro yet is probably niggling at you, understandably so.
keep concentrating on yourself. making the plan to distract yourself today is a good thing. what can you do for yourself that is truly for yourself?
I know you aren't feeling well, and that probably isn't helping at all.
from Mozella's "last $20"
my self-doubt enslaves me and your kind words could save me but you just won't open your mouth...
...and I miss my family, and I miss the way I used to be the better half of me that you simply refuse to see
M-41 H-38 M-10 years, T-14 years Bomb-PA 3/19/07 Separated-6/7/07 Piecing/h back home 5/08 S-6 S-4 D-4
"Courage doesn't always roar. Sometimes courage is that little voice at the end of the day that says, 'I'll try again tomorrow.'"
