Now I've done it.... again #4?

[nephartiti]

I e-mailed our options for Retro. He has not brought it up again.

I am in trouble because I am starting to believe I am being duped. I know it is my fear talking, but what if my fears are right? What if he is leading me on so that I will be "content" and not snoop or question him about emptying the account. I shouldn't talk to my SIL, but she thinks maybe he is retaining an L with that money.

I don't know about any of it. I know I can't do anything about it anyway. I just know I will be crushed, DB or no, if it turns out he is just toying with me.

stop
stop
stop

I guess I am having trust issues. He has lied so much in the past. Ouch, this is hard.

You know my tendencies. I want to go drive by that school and see if they leave together again. That would be bad. I can't do that. I know I can't. I have to re-direct me energies today.

I just KNOW he is still lying about some things so that lets me believe it could ALL be lies. I guess this is where faith comes in. I will have to act AS IF he is being sincere and pray to God I am doing the right thing.

Sorry, I am rambling. My brain is rambling. Going a bit nuts here.