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[Not Much Left]

So much for being SuperDad.

I can take my lumps as good as anyone but on this one, sorry, just another show of being inconsiderate and selfish by W.

Her ONLY job is to get homework done and deal with the kids. No cleaning duties, that's it!!!!!!

So, I am a little late but still got home in time. Pretty much on time, ALL THE TIME, and all I was asking was to have him ready. In the grand scheme of things, this is an irrelevant event and I could care less if he is late for practice, but again, give me a freakin break, I pretty much DO EVERYTHING, no joke here. If u knew me u would understand that statement.

I spent years working from home, helping raise babies/kids, clean, cook, laundry (which I still do) so this is not a case of "Daddy goes to work and mommy takes care of everything else". So when people say "you have no idea what its like to be home with the kids all day", ummmmm yeah, I do + work full time. I once stated here that I tend to move at a different speed than others, high gear, all the time, no stopping etc which is clearly part of our problem.

After talking to me, a friend's wife once said "so wait, you run a company, shuttle the kids around, clean, take care of the house, help with homework, take the kids to school...." Wow, I did not know that. She knows my W very well and I think was a bit shocked that W has it so easy. We have a full time housekeeper, yard and pool maintenance and basically call for everything else to be taken care of when needed. If my poor W has a tough day, which is usually a homework incident, it is out for dinner cuz she is to overwhelmed to make something. That S#*t adds up when it happens all the time.

Now if you have gotten this far, you can sense I am very unhappy at the moment. It started with this BS yesterday then there is a book she is reading "Healing is a Choice" on the counter. I believe written by a Christian Pastor author. I flip through it to see if I should read it(honestly, I am WAY beyond snooping) and BAM, the first page it naturally opens to is something she had just read and highlighted. The one phrase on the whole page highlighted is a statement by this author who apparently got Divorced and it says something like "I now feel like God lead me to this Divorce even though HE does not believe in Divorce" pointing out that God is an accepting God and that it is OK to move on and you shouldn't beat youirself up over this decision, which yes is hard but needed to wake up and realize a fuller life.

Well "F" that. This was highlighted in the last week which would actually explains a lot about her reactions/mood toward me.

I just want to know where we stand. Now I am under the impression that she is just waiting for the holidays to be over and get this over with at the beginning of the year.

I am so angry that I am being strung along for convenience sake that all I pretty much want to do is confront her.

I am.trying to calm down and give it time. Pretty tired of me working on this and her avoiding me and giving her time. "I am hurt, whatever, yeah me too, get some balls or whatever girls need to get to deal with the issues".

Signed
Pretty PO'd CVA