atgo, I'm trying. I'm very sentimental/very much a person who loves "days" so I know myself what importance it holds to me. it won't be another day to me. I need to accept that and allow myself to feel/do what feels right to me. what I also need to realize is that for h, it likely is just another day. and he is busy with work and such, so there is a good chance he won't even remember what day it is tomorrow...will be distracted.
I will not be disappointed if he doesn't acknowledge the day. okay, that's a lie, there is a small part of me that wishes he would, but the logical part of me understands that he most likely won't. I mean, what is there to say? "happy anniversary, honey?" this is a man who denies happiness in our marriage, who left our marriage and who has lied and betrayed on so many levels. the only thing I should expect from him at this point is more lies and betrayals.
sorry, as I told you all on saturday, I'm bitter. bit old pot of bitter stew cooking right now. lol.
M-41 H-38 M-10 years, T-14 years Bomb-PA 3/19/07 Separated-6/7/07 Piecing/h back home 5/08 S-6 S-4 D-4
"Courage doesn't always roar. Sometimes courage is that little voice at the end of the day that says, 'I'll try again tomorrow.'"
