Well maybe not so much what i would like to do on my own but, to do things with other people. My friends are to busy with their spouses and children and my family except for 1 brother live far away from me so i don't have many to do anything with. I do things my self but that can get kind of boring as im'e a social person. There are not any groups around here for anything. AND I DO MEAN ANYTHING. I go excersize but, you can only do so much of that then you have to go home.
I am going tonite out to dinner then a seminar on weight loss in Syracuse with some girls from work. Didn't mention it to H i'll leave a note telling him i went out with friends. I won't be home until he goes to bed. By then i imagine he'll be calling wondering where i am.
H came home from hunting last nite, has to work today and tommorrow,and has informed me that he will be going back down south to hunt this weekend again(his every other weekend off). This means i'll be on my own again and i'll be transporting his Dad so he can spend the day at home. I know this is just for a while but, after this it will be back to going to a movie every other weekend and thinking that will take care of things. We are together at nite and we watch shows on tv together but, in my OP that is not really Quality time i fell that he thinks it is,(although it is better than nothing right now). This is all he likes to do and if I suggest going out for a drink he never wants to he doesn't like to he says. Our friends i think gave up on asking us to do anything as he always says no or is doing something else.
I love to dance and listen to bands particularly rock but not as much fun doing it yourself. But i just might this weekend.
It just seems that he still doesn't get my LL even though in the past he has been told so many times that this is an issue with me. It is what he wants to do himself or with other people then me. And he's the one in MLC.
And I wonder why he still doesn't feel a connection?
Maybe my emotions are getting the best of me again.
JAK
You don't get to choose how you're going to die. Or when, you can only decide how you're going to live now. ~Joan Baez
