Read my first post, not something I care to revisit. And, no, I've apologized and apologized to her for my action on a number of occassions. I understand the concept of apology and wasn't trying to apologize again, but was dumbfounded that she's holding me snapping for 4 minutes against 16 years. I'm sorry, but that's BS. I've never given her cause before or since to be afraid of me or afraid of telling me anything. I sincerely apologized from a heart a number of times for my role in where we are.
She has internalized this and will not talk to me about any pain she felt in the R. I don't know if she ever will. I feel that for us to have any chance she needs to open up. In the context of DB and not pushing, I don't know how to get that to happen.
And unattractive interactions? How so?
Regarding dating, as you and others have pointed out, I have no R with my W and it's actually starting to feel stupid to call her my W. She's not. She is my ex. Technically, yeah, we're married. Regarding dating. I'm not going out of my way to either seek it or avoid it. One sort of date to see what it would feel like doesn't invalidate, in my opinion, the possibility of reconciliation. As of now, I don't see it happening. If going out on a date or two helps me to detach and move on with my life, off I go.
Didn't need the dig about W's probably OM. I believe I've explained on a number of occassions that in some ways I don't feel like this time around it's an A, just that it sucks because of who this person is.
BD
My latest
Me: 36 W: 35 2 D: 9 and 5 T: 16 years M: 12 10/4/06: Bomb 10/5/06: Ended A 4/22/07: ILYBNILWY
