Last night I was stupid enough to touch xh.

It's been a couple of weeks, and my hormones are making me nuts. There have been a couple of opportunities, but the baby was awake, so no go. Anyway, I tried the only thing that I can...I reached over the baby to rub his shoulders last night.

Bad idea.

He jumped and tensed up. Whoops.

I apologized to him this morning. His comment: "You should know better than to touch me when I'm asleep." Ugh. Sometimes the massage approach works, sometimes not. Timing must be bad right now. It's so hard to know what I can/cannot approach him. So I'll just stay backed off, and wait until he initiates. He will sooner or later.


Azhira

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