What a h&llish weekend you had there buddy. I think HS is right, you need a vacation and all of you need some therapy. Don't discount it, it may just be what the doctor ordered.
I watched a movie the other night, You Kill Me, or something like that. Anyway the main character started AA for his drinking problem. As I sat watching the movie I asked my GF, she's Psychologist, what she thought of the program. She said and I quote, "It's best thing ever for any addiction."
I said all of that to say this. You know AA is where you need to be and that it has worked for you in the past. What needs to happen now is your wife and family need to be told by someone other than you, a therapist maybe, that it is CRUCIAL that you attend these meetings. That they support your Sobriety.
You're in a bad place and I wish I could help you out brother but you have to remember the serenity prayer. Please don't give up on your M or your sobriety. They both are worth saving.
Me 45 WAW 46 Married 23yrs D22 S18 D12 W moved out 1/12/07 Divorce Final 2/06/08