Over the past two weeks, WAH-MLCer has been up & down w/his emotions. One constant is his love for our child. He has been hot & cold w/me. Sex is still sex to him, no emotional attachment, no kissing, all about him.
I am much much stronger from where I was a year ago. Can look back & see how I have evolved w/my strength. Child is my primary focus, along w/family.
Our 11yr anniversay is coming up and at least WAH-MLCer is planning to spend it w/us. I told him that he didn't have to & created some excuse that it would be the last nice weekend of the season for us to go to our tent property. SO, we are going as a family. HUGE difference from last year.
Still need to re-read my books & continue on my path.
Have found the strength AND peace within myself, that whatever is thrown my way, I CAN HANDLE it. (since I have already been through the fires of hell) Calculated that WAH-MLCer's midlife crisis began around the summer of '03 and know it is still not over, if it ever will be.
Still thinking of everyone on the bb daily, sending prayers and positive thoughts. Will keep checking in periodically to update, otherwise... I'm spending my time w/child & focusing on me.
:-)
Mary in Austin - Please update when you can. I worry about you. Hugs and more hugs to you and your children.
MariS
"Going for the Gold & not the Booby prize"
Become the change you want to see.....
Me - 37 WAH - 35 child - 2yrs Separated - August '06 Married - 10yrs, Together 18 Not feeling WAH's internal struggle - Feb '08
