I'm sorry to hear that things aren't going well for you, either, Torchbearer. It's a tough thing to make it through this, I hear you.
It's hard not to request friends to help when you're in a place like this, but, I've luckily managed. I've talked to my SIL/her sister and she's surprisingly supportive of my moving forward with helping myself. I haven't said much to SIL that could get back to W that's damaging.
I do know that I need to protect my "material" interests, and it seems that W and I are in agreement about several things.
As much as I want to believe, I think I know, rationally, that this is really over. It's hard, and sad. But I'm trying to pick myself up as well from this. But, damn it, there's times where life just feels so empty that it's difficult.
I'm finding happiness in little things, too - a cat curled up next to me when I use the computer, being able to enjoy the super-shiny new TV, spending time with friends. The real thing that's getting me is not having more close companionship with someone. So as dorky as it is, I make sure to give the cat (one that was my wife and I's for 6 years; now he's mine) a hug that he definately doesn't appreciate but makes me feel better.
I hope things work out the best for you, Torchbearer! Best of luck and God bless!
