Thank you so much and yes prayer is what gets me by. That and I listen to the song "Praise you in the storm". My kids even belt it out when I am playing it.

I am actually not going to take any calls from MIL because she simply will not stop pumping me for information and then twist it all up. She even informed me if I were a better housekeeper this wouldn't have happend because OW is a better housekeeper. Hello I have 5 kids full time and a slob for a husband, I work full time, PTA VP, Soccer asst. coach, and H personal secretary. I had 2 dogs, 2 cats, birds, fish, and a bearded dragon! I did the best I could. OW is on permanent disability for her bipolar and is never out of her house so lets do the math. I did the best I could.

Wow sorry needed to vent... anyway yes I plan to detach from MIL.

I am really going to try to take some time to work on me. I need to figure out if I can even get past all of this and if I even want my marriage to work at this point. I love my H and always will but I have to heal a lot to ever trust him again.

One day at a time I suppose. He did call me tonight and told me he loved me for what that is worth.. I just said thank you and hung up... I take it all with a grain of salt. I have no idea tomorrow he could hate me...

M 32 H 39
SS 15, SD 12, S11, S9, D7, D6, D4
E/A 02/06 WAS 03/06 RH 05/06
On 07/07 told me he wants to leave again.
On 08/11/07 Walked out again.

People say "When God closes a door he opens a window." They forget to tell you "It is hell in the hallway!"