The dreaded Family party yesterday...or should I say the Spanish inquisition. Its really hard to explain to an old fashioned family that sometimes things just aren't going to work. Esp hard when they all feel that you stick it out no matter what. Your spouse drinks, its okay. They hit you, thats okay. They cheat, its okay. Everyone stays, no matter how miserable they are. Which just makes the cycle go around...they more miserable, the more they eat, they more the booze, drug and cheat. All the while everyone is pretending that everything is OKAY!
So I step out of line. I am changing my life. I am not going to be miserable. I am not taking a lover. I am not going to drink myself into the oblivion because my H doesn't desire me.
Come on here this is 2007 right? I have a career, a degree, a good head on my shoulders. Why is this separation and what not so scary to these people?
I asked my Dad...If it really goes belly up...Can't I just take a Mulligan?
There's my humor for today.
Me: 30 EX-H: 37 DD: 5 Separated 6/07. MC for months, EX-H quit MC. Divorce Final 8/14/08. Trying to move on with new life.
