Update on Sunday: The day went very well. We had a small party after the ceremony at our house. I felt an electric "connection" to her most of the day. Not sure why. Perhaps the presence of my family and her family, the Confirmation ceremony, lack of discord between us probably all added to it I imagine. Add to that the fact that (I sincerely believe) her suspicions regarding me cheating on her were dashed on Saturday, and it all added up well.
Her step-mother told me that some family members whom I thought were "nodding heads" are in fact, at worst, neutral. So that's good. I know that speaking to her step-mom can be dangerous; however, she is pro-marriage LBS herself. Add to that she is a former social worker, and the fact that she promised to keep some things I said to her quiet, so I feel OK about confiding in her to a limited extent.
This morning was not so good. Not terrible, mind you. Remember, she is going out of town on a business trip this week where she will see her boyfriend. Now, I knew about this trip weeks ago. Still, she caught me off-guard this morning when she told me she is leaving tomorrow (she has never told me her travel schedule for this trip... does not matter, because she lies about her travel anyway). So she mentioned that she is leaving, and I replied, "yeah, yeah, OK" and unconsciously blinked my eyes.
"Is something bothering you," she asked. "No <pause>... I need to get to work," I said walking away. "Yeah, yeah, you just go to work."
She thought I was upset that she is going to the meeting, and I was being passive-aggressive. While I wish she wouldn't go, I know that she needs to. I was just caught off guard. I don't like the fact that she will likely be sharing a room with her boyfriend. I resisted the urge to fire back at her (a dozen replies to the question "is something bothering you?" come to mind).
It's gonna be a very difficult week for this guy...
