This was going to be the first weekend H has the kids over to OW's in along time due to all his out of town trips. I left H a vm b/c it was getting late on Friday night and he still wasnt home to pick up the girls. He finally returns my call and he sounds pissy. I ask whats the matter & he says in a teary voice " I hate this", "taking the girls back & forth like this & I know it hurts you too". ?? I was confused b/c before (in the start of the A), h couldnt wait to play "stepfamily" w/ OW. WWHen he arrrived he said some more, he asked if we were staying over night in Orlando b/c he didnt want to leave the girls "with *HER* <<the way he said *HER*>>> was almost like repulsive??? So, all in all it made me think that OW is getting tired of *babysitting* my kids??? Hmmmmmmm....oh, no not MS wonderful, who organized a easter hunt in their backyard & who make chocolate chip pancakes for my girls? Yeah.....I guess he "best mommy" front is starting to show her true colors...he he he I cacnt remember all that was said but, I could tell something was btw them, he would call her "that woman"?? OR if I said *your place* he'd say thats not my place...I responded w/ well, you've made it yours for half a year....H- yeah, but now all my stuff is here back home....I suggested he ask his sister if he can leave the girls w/ her for the game and take his nephew instead..he said OK.
I texted him just before the football game started, I had a feeling he didnt take the girls to his sister's... Sure enough, later D10 told me he took her & OW's D11 to the game. I asked him later about why he didnt ask his sister & said she's been acting strange and so he didnt...So, he left the other two D6 &D7 w/ OW.......hmmmmm, I am sure MS clingy didnt like that one bit b/c D10 told me OW said she a alot of homework to do....oh, this is what she wants, she wants H to marrry her, she better get use to it, right??
Anyways.....here it comes the sex part......after he put the girls to bed....he started to "feel me out"...I said "what si this?" Im I just a booty to you? Why me? THis is why you have her, this is her job to do , not mine...you can get it whenever you want from her....<in the mean time H is shaking his head no, no...>>> H- OK (as he was putting his pants back on)and kept his head down.....you know things arent peachy, rosy w/ her...
I followed him out to the garage as I took him and grabbed him to face me and I told him...you know I love to do this w/ you, but the last we did..it only made me feel bad, more alone than before an dto know your only going to go back to her afterwards....I need more than that..I want to wake up to you in the mornings and go bed at night w/ you... <<shaking head, I know, I know>>>
We went out to the garage as we talked baout other stuff as he pointed out to his dad's lawnmower that needs to sold before Thursday when his dad leaves to out of the country to go back home..I sat myself on top of the freezer..as he stood there staring at me.....he came over, looked at me straight in the eye and said "you are so hot, still so hot", I said really? What do you mean? H- Your hair, your whole you....
He grabbed the back of my neck as he started to kiss me,looked around and said,hmm..what do ya think shall we do it here in the garage? I was hesitant, especially after all that speech of mine...OH , heck there goes my speech.....UGH!!!
<<i have secretly wanted to do it in the garage..somewhere different .. >> I said " you know its better than the same 'ol, same'ol",H- what do you mean? I told him its good to switch it up around from time to time, not always in the bedroom... We did it!! Right there on top of the freezer...and no it wasnt cold...... And no, I didnt feel bad afterwrds.....thaks God, maybe I can go back to my old self again..seperate, detach while having sex, treat it as nothing but that, sex....I think I can..
This morning my girls filled me in what they did... D10 todl me H & OW were fighting all day Saturday and they didnt go out until the night to go eat... she said they didnt even go to the apt pool...hmmm...I thought they would it was a nice sunny day...
For the game, H took our oldest D10 & Ow's D11 to the game..the girls said "it was their turn this time". On the way back for H to drop them off ..the girls said H told them this was going tobe thier last time spending the weekend over OW's....yeah , sure I've heard that one before.... D10 told me they didnt get out of the house all day Saturday <<thats strange, I thought they would be at the apt pool b/c it was a hot day>>
