So2

Feel the fear and do it anyway. Live for you.

Try not to work on the R do for you and your children and make a life for you. BE HAPPY FOR YOU.

Your H needs to fix himself, you can not fix him.
He divorced you but yet still continues his crap, sounds like MLC to me. Or just someone who is spoiled and never grew up.

JAK

You don't get to choose how you're going to die. Or when, you can only decide how you're going to live now. ~Joan Baez