Close your eyes...remember the scene around you, as you wrote it. The kids running through the meadow. People who love you around you. The smell of the food, the taste of your favorite dish...bring that back, live it again. Concentrate on what was good, and you will feel as good as when it was actually happening.
Celebrate the day you were born--the beginnings of an amazing, strong woman took hold.
H lashes out at you because he cannot face what he has become. Keep that light in you, be benevolent...even when he spews. He puts it all on you because you are the only one he can. Remember, while they are using distorted thinking, everything bad in their life and feelings has to be your fault; then, they don't have to take responsibility.
Go back to that good place, mk. That is where you belong.
