Theo, I've been at work for days on end, and just now dug up your thread to catch up. I am sooooo sorry about your situation, but you are doing well. The 40th bday thing is a tough one.
H's came less than 5 months after his A. MANY months earlier (right before the bomb) I had started a project for his bday, emailed/contacted every friend I could find from his life to send memories/photos of him, and made him a This Is Your Life kind of scrapbook. Even through the bomb, his firing, the rest of the A, the emails/photos would come in, and I would file them away for his scrapbook, thinking "I am going to have to ship this thing across the country when he moves to be near OW" - but still plugged along. He said it was one of the best presents he ever received.
Fast forward one year to my 40th birthday and it was the largest disappointment on record. Yuck. Anyway, I digress wildly, as I am prone to do.
All that to say: a) it sucks to turn 40, IMO, as a woman. I hate it. b) you did the right thing, and your wife is wrong, but I still feel for her in a small way about the 40 thing. c) you feel for her too, and it is good your heart was a bit sad and connected to her feelings - and yet it didn't deter how you acted.
Hope to catch up with you more soon. Submitting for another sales job here, may hit you up for the interview coaching if it gets a bite. I hate interviews, as you remember.
You're NOT wrong. Don't 2nd guess yourself.
Forget the former things; do not dwell on the past. See, I am doing a new thing! Is 43:18-19
If it seems slow in coming, wait. It's on its way. It will come right on time. Hab 2:3
