Forrest: Just so you know I think that you are doing an amazing job. I know that none of this is easy but at least you have the guts to try. Thats nore than alot of people can say. No matter how things turn out at least you'll be able to look at your kids and say "I really tried". Will your wife be able to say that? And you will be a better person for all of this even though it really sucks.That is what I'm learning. No matter what happens I will be ok and you will too. Although I hope that we both get what we want in the end. Your kids are lucky to have you. I wish everyday that my dad cared about us the way that you care about your children. Just remember that everyone is here for you and you can handle whatever is thrown your way. All the best. Talk to you soon