H & I sat down with boys and told them. 3 yr old doesn't understand but 7 year has broken his heart. H handled it very well, I said nothing, only to say that this was not my decision that it was what daddy wanted. H said that he didn't love mommy any more and he would not be living in the house any more.
H was happy to stay around, but I just needed him to be gone, I needed space.
Friend txt me to see how i was, i told her what had happened and also said H seemed regretless and he seemed like a huge weight had been lifted off his shoulders. How the hell it happened i dont know, but H received the txt as well as friend. OMG H was not happy, he said it was the worst w/end of his life and came close to how he felt when his mother died, he said he was gutted that i should critise him as he would never do that to me. He said we just couldn't carried on as we were(bearing in mind, I had to tell him to go)
my head is a mess right now. H is expecting things from me right now that i cant give, he seems as if he is just as beat up inside and expects me to be normal and support this decision and him. i told him i'm hurting as much as him and he mustn't misunderstand everything I say and do as an act of anger and revenge. i just need space and time. I know he won't be coming back.
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P/A confirmed 5/03/08
03/08 H said affair over, I dont think it is, h still doesn't want marriage
T: 13 M: 8 D:20 & 17 from Previous M S: 8 & 4 BS: May 07 ILYBNILWY S: 13/10/07
