Cinders, My H and I are in a healing phase; I still don't know what the future brings, if either H or I will "blow" this reconciliation in some way. However, I can say this most definitely, that through my H's confusion I learned what I am about and where I am going. I have always had poor esteem, but going through this challenge, I somehow made peace with myself and like myself. Journey, you are one cool lady, hahaha.
I came to this website in 5/04, posting on the SSM forum. We had a sexually starved marriage for years...my libido basically shut down. There were many reasons for this ( which I won't get into now). In the beginning of '04 a miracle happened and I began feeling sensual again, only to find that my H had no interest in me. I wanted to be more intimate, but he said he didn't have those feelings for me anymore. Unknown to me, he was living a secret life with OW.
My journey is about a secret being uncovered and developing myself, as my H struggled between two worlds. And it's about love and forgiveness as well, on so many levels. And if things go the way I'd like, it will be about two people having the courage, wisdom and maturity to truly be intimate.
