Sandi2, thanks for the encouragement. Today had started out ok, but as the day went on, i started to lose my cool and began to feel really down. The deadbolt lock on the back door broke last nite, so I couldnt lock the door and wound up taking the whole handle apart so i could as least get the door locked for the nite. Spent most of my sat morning trying to get a new handle set for the door, at the store all of them said that they were guaranteed to fit and that they could be installed with just a screw driver. Yeah right! Got home with one and found that the new handle did not fit and i had to take it back. I spent a great deal of time driving around to different hardware stores and finally found a replacement deadbolt and it works like a charm! Only spent $5 instead of $115 for the whole handleset. Anyway it took me almost 5 hours to finally get it fixed. My S stayed overnite last nite with some friends, and didnt come home until after 2 this afternoon. D came with her boyfriend, but they went up to Gettysburg to ride bikes in the battlefield. Unfortunately, my S and D are at the age where they still dont want to hang out with the parents, friends are most important,and that made me feel very lonely this afternoon. I got in the car and went for a drive, and spent the whole time having a pity party for myself. Finally my D called and wanted to go for dinner, so my S, D and her boyfriend and I went for dinner at a nice place that also has lots of tv's, so we could eat and watch college football. Had a nice time. Sitting here now thinking about how lonely I am. Wow, I am 48 years old just realized that I dont have any "real" friends. Sure I know alot of people, I have clients that I consider friends, but no one that I can really rely on, someone who I can wear my heart out on. I do have the pastor that married us, but he lives over an hour away and we just email once a week. I've spent 24+ years with my W, 22 M, and 20 years with kids, and it is now hitting me that I may be by myself sooner than I care to. Does my W realize what this D is going to do to all of us? I doubt it. She is so far into her funk that it may take a long time to straighten out. Sorry to be having a pity party on your thread. Just have to get control of my self and move on. Things were so positive up until my W said that she was going away for the weekend. I have to wonder if the prednisone that she was on was giving her a high and now b/c she has been off it for a few days, she is going to revert back to her old ways. Well, enough rambling, got to find something to do sunday. Maybe I'll drive to Gettysburg and walk the battlefield. I am a bit of a civil war buff. Thanks for allowing me to vent.
