I have realized how much of an idiot I have been! Why is it that I couldn't be happy with what I have, I have something that is better then it has been in well over a year, even longer actually, but I couldn't be satisfied! Well now I have really realized what I have right now and I am grateful. I think that woke me up is what Disillussioned said to me that work me up, and that I am an inspiration to him, and that really made me look at what I have and what I have achieved, and I am so grateful for it! Also last night we dialogued and we talked alittle about h relationship with ow, he said it wasn't a relationship, he knows that now, what we have is a relationship, we love, we laugh, we have history, children...and that made me feel really good, that he now knows that and I do believe that he feels that in his heart! So I am happy right now and know that I am and we are moving in the right direction!
Me - 44 H - 44 M - 19yrs together - 23yrs D16 S8 EA/PA - Bomb Oct20/06 Jan 8/07 Feb 01/07 Jul 15/07 H still @ home Recovered!
