The Good, the Bad, and the Funny Part 5

[mkultra]

Yes, Neph that is a lot to think about. My friend J spent a year where her father was in another country with an OW before coming home. Her parents R has not healed 100% but they are planning on growing old together. I DO NOT se this happening with my H because of his insecurity.

Here is the rub. I am not really that much of a believer in the fact that infidelity is the be all end all of a marriage but my H is.

Sound ironic? Yes, I know. My H always thought it would be me to cheat because I have had many boyfriends and male best friends including him. He also knows that my parents have dealt with infidelity but so has his.

My H is the one that is extremely loyal and faithful and all about monogamy. Too bad it is not with his wife.

He has chosen so badly because of his insecurity and he will hold on steadfast or else he has thrown away his entire life for nothing. He must make her love him completely or else all this was for nothing.

I heard Sting say the same thing in an interview. He holds on so strongly to his wife because he met her through a horrible affair. He said he couldnever lose her because of all the pain they went through together. Sting cheated on his wife and the mother of his children with her best friend who was living next door. He is now married to his wife's best friend.

But I can tell you and Morgan are giving me the hint to ease up on going dark but it is so hard. H wantsto come by the garage today to gett some tools. Even something that inocuous becomes an issue, as if he is hauling all our memories away or if there is another nail in the coffin.

My SIL saw us together and mentioned how my H stares at me. SIL said he looks bewildered as to why I would hate him and not look at him. He thinks he is just my exboyfriend and everybody should get along. He has no idea that he has humiliated me and betrayed our family.