have accepted that this is probably over, and that I might have to find other women to date. But, even though things are tense and harsh right now between W and I, I still love her so very, very much, and if she and i managed to reconcile, it'd be amazing.
You're not ready to date yet, MN, and doing so this early in the game would be quite harmful to any hope at reconciliation.
Also, I just wanted to add that be careful of what you say about W, the R/M, B and B's W, etc, to mutual friends of you and your W. Any negative things are things you don't want to get back to W or B/B's W can easily spread through the grapevine. I learned this the hardway early on, so please just be very concious of what you say to people who will at some point talk to W. For me, I just quit talking about W COMPLETELY when around those friends, and the only time I do talk about her is when THEY bring her up. However, even then I try to keep things short, simple, and non-judgemental.
Keep reading and re-reading DR so it continues to stick more and more. Like Puddle said, you'll get better and better at doing what is necessary.
