Now I've done it.... again #4?

[nephartiti]

Right now, I don't have DB in me. Right now, I hate him and don't want anything to do with him--ever.

However, I know that feelings change. So I am trying to just not do anything at all while I deal with my anger. I don't want to do anything I'll regret. I have been completely dark since Wednesday (not that long, I know). I haven't even sent kid pics or voice notes like I used to--absolutely no contact.

I don't regret seeing them. I don't regret letting him know I saw them. If it pushes them closer together, well so be it. He is her problem now, not mine. Let them try to "protect" each other from the imaginary threat that they think I am. I will be living my life in freedom without fear.

It's raining here. Maybe the kids and I will bake some cookies, play a few games, and watch a few videos.