Ouch. That hurt. Does he really? No, don't answer that. I'm sure if you heard his point of view you wouldn't think that. It does take two to tango.
I'm sorta going dark grey. If he calls I'll talk to him. I need to try and be upbeat. I have a free microwave from one of the managers at work if he needs it when he finds a place. I left him a message yesterday to tell him I had it at work.
He rang just before noon today but I had my mobile on vibrate so I didn't hear it. Besides which I was talking to my mum on the phone while I did housework (for some reason I get so much more done while I'm talking on the phone). I didn't realise he'd called till about 1.30pm so I rang back. He didn't answer so I left a message hopefully sounding chipper and let him know what I was doing with d (and her friend who is sleeping over) for the rest of the day. He rarely leaves messages, just calls. He generally will only leave a message if it's really important or if he's pissed that I'm not answering his calls.
a 180 for me is to not return his calls as soon as I can.
I think as much as I tell myself that I love him, this is not a healthy relationship. I need to love myself first. I think I thought I couldn't get any better than him and I put up with a lot of crap that I should have stood up to.
I really feel like I'm flip flopping all over the place. Today, I am done with our marriage. It's too hard. We are better off going back to friends stage (after a period of no contact).
