UGH he just called again. I said what do you want? I was thinking about you. I said ok. I said H, I cant do this anymore this up and down and up and down. I have no clue how you feel ever. He said I feel about you like I always have... So stupid me says "Wow great to know you never loved me". He gets mad and says I have to go. I said figures. He said you just don't get it. I said get what. He said just hang in there and give me time... I love you... and now I need to go.

And I said... yep you guessed it can't shut my mouth ... I said..

Yeah go to her... don't tell me you love me and then go jump in bed with her. JUST STOP CALLING ME!

Now is that what I want?? No... but I blurted it out anyway. I am so confused and so tired and so dang frustrated with him it is unreal. I think tomorrow when I take the kids to the town festival and parade I will leave my phone at home. I am so predictable. I carry my phone 24 X 7 so it would do him good to not be able to get a hold of me.

M 32 H 39
SS 15, SD 12, S11, S9, D7, D6, D4
E/A 02/06 WAS 03/06 RH 05/06
On 07/07 told me he wants to leave again.
On 08/11/07 Walked out again.

People say "When God closes a door he opens a window." They forget to tell you "It is hell in the hallway!"