You don't suck. He sucks. maybe he needs to start DBing and you take a LaLa Land vacation? What if the tables were turned? Huh? How would he handle knowing you were out last night with OP? Maybe then he would start acting more protective of you and not some OW? I am sorry you are on this roller coaster. You have every right to be confused about what to do but there are some patterns in his behavior. Just try to prepare yourself for every way this sitch could turn.
I know how you feel about the lies. It has become a complulsion for my H so it does help that I cut off communication from my H. it protects me from the ordeal of his R and his lies.
Me:38 H:39 MLC M:10 R:23 years D6 S3 Bomb: Easter, 2007 "Every day may not be good, but there's something good in every day."