I give up. I suck at this whole DB thing. I honestly think maybe my marriage is one that just needs to end.

I know I sound like a big quitter but I am just so pathetic and I don't know how to stop being so. Last night he was so mean it was unreal (he was with her) right at bedtime so I cry all night long. Then today he calls and is nasty (he is with her.) Then today he told me he got in a fight with her last night and almost drove here to me. (Just what I want.... my husband when he is fighting with his Pregnant GF back with me..)

Now I am actually afraid he might come back. I am not sure now I want that.. I DO NOT want him back like he is or has been. I am so scared to say NO I don't want this because he will just give up and stay with her. I have no idea what to do. Maybe I should just throw in the towell. After all the roller coaster isn't going to stop until I bail right??

I am in a real mood tonight I know.....

M 32 H 39
SS 15, SD 12, S11, S9, D7, D6, D4
E/A 02/06 WAS 03/06 RH 05/06
On 07/07 told me he wants to leave again.
On 08/11/07 Walked out again.

People say "When God closes a door he opens a window." They forget to tell you "It is hell in the hallway!"